The Red Door

Today we went back to our apartment one last time, a piece of closure both of us had been avoiding for weeks. We signed it away and gave back our keys. We cried, we gasped for air, we breathed in the scent of his room, stared at the wall where his crib had sat for [...]

What is New

Moving into our new home has been a bittersweet experience. While unpacking, decorating and settling has been somewhat cathartic, its also been difficult not to think "I'd rather have him than all this." It's rough road and each new day of grief is so different from the last, yet ultimately feels the same because I [...]

Forever Young

For our Sloanie "May God bless and keep you always May your wishes all come true May you always do for others And let others do for you May you build a ladder to the stars And climb on every rung May you stay forever young Forever young, forever young May you stay forever young. [...]

A Day in the Life

A day in the life of a newly bereaved parent: -Waking up each morning ready to go get your baby out of the crib, and remembering your baby is gone. -Scrolling through Facebook having to "unfollow" friends with babies (or children) the age yours was. Then Hiding 90% of Facebook's suggested ads because they're "no [...]

Home

Justin and I have been together a little more than 6 years, married for 2 next week. We've experienced more heartache and trauma as a couple in the past three weeks than ever before. But we're still here, and we're still trying. Today we moved into our first house. A house overlooking both the mountain [...]

Ashes to Ashes

Ashes to Ashes

We were told today that Sloan's ashes are ready. The realization that his body is gone forever is unbearable. Each day really is a new form of grief. No two are alike. It hits like the waves of the ocean, sort of ebs and flows. I think of what if's, I question it all constantly. [...]

Rowan

Rowan

The Rowan Tree is prominent in Norse mythology as the tree from which the first woman was made, (the first man being made from the standard ash tree). It was said to have saved the life of the god Thor by bending over a fast flowing river in the Underworld in which Thor was being [...]