We gave Rowan this pillow for Christmas, it was a surprise gift sent to us last month. He has slept cradling it every night since. He carries it around the house everywhere he goes. He says goodnight to it and hugs it good morning. He uses it to teach Phoenix who her brother is, spends [...]

My mom opened this beautiful locket for Christmas. Justin and I thought on this gift for a long while as it has a very heavy meaning. Inside, rests a small clipping of Sloan’s hair. My mom and dad had a bond with him that surpassed all others except our own. They were there when he [...]

Winter is hard. For so many people. If you suffer from seasonal depression or anxiety, you have a full understanding of what I’m saying. Add grieving the loss of a child to that and it’s a doozy. Sadness, triggers, and struggle don’t relent just because Christmas lights, magnolia wreaths, meticulously wrapped presents and Pinterest cookies [...]

It’s been rough lately. (I feel like I’m saying that a lot and it’s beginning to lose meaning) Rowan has been having a bit of a round with his grief and it’s thrown all of us. He is feeling the immensity of his loss now, maybe because Phoenix triggers memories or reminds him of the [...]

On December 4th 2016, at 3:00am, my water broke. Sloan Valor DeRosier was born 2 hours and 45 minutes later, only 45 minutes after we were admitted. Eight pounds 11 ounces of absolute joy and relief. He was a gift of life after two losses, the product of countless tests, charts, and fertility meds. 2 [...]

I cried while I put up our tree this year. Two years ago at this time I was a week away from going into labor with Sloan. The holiday season was so filled with joy and excitement over our new little guy. Now his birthday is “He would be ____ years old this year” and [...]