My parents, brother, and sister in law were supposed to head out this morning for a camping trip. We were dog sitting for my parents. At 3:00am exactly we woke up to a loud thud and the sound of Roxy screaming, shrieking in pain. She was old, weak, blind, deaf, and had bulging disks. Her [...]
A year ago, I’d thought that moments like this were gone forever for me. My baby in my arms, my boy beside us. Curled up in the comfort of our big bed as the sunrise beams in through the cracks of the blinds. I didn't think I'd hold another baby of my own. Thought Rowan's [...]
Tonight Rowan was running through the sprinklers and a gorgeous big blue dragonfly joined him, hovering around him, going in circles in front of the house, and flying through the sprinkler with him. Rowan kept singing "hello baby Sloanie, I love you!" This photo is from beforehand, of Rowan and our friend’s son River. With [...]
We’ve been quiet about it to allow peace in initial grieving, but last week, my moms brother Scott passed away. Originally given two years, he fought the odds of mesothelioma for a year and a half. His sudden decline and subsequent passing has hit us all hard. My mom lost a brother. My cousins lost [...]
Phoenix has what we call a “special ear”. Her ears are completely different from each other. One was folded in the womb so it developed incorrectly. (She CAN hear with it). It has almost no upper helix and it’s antihelical fold is deformed a bit. When she was newborn we thought about taping it, sometimes [...]
Wednesday was our 3rd wedding anniversary. We’ve been together 7 years, but when we got married 4 years in, I remember people telling us the first year of marriage is the hardest. Then, two years later, after Sloan died, I read somewhere that an absurd amount of marriages do not survive child loss, most ending [...]
When we sat down with her pediatrician last week and made the decision to switch Phoenix to formula because of her problems with my milk, I felt like I had failed. (I won’t go into detail because I don’t need to explain our reasoning other than to say we covered all bases in trying to [...]
