July 1

Three years ago today, we stood in a field at an old dairy farm, having our gender reveal photos taken. I was 17 weeks pregnant with Sloan. We would go on to share our announcement photos two days later, on July 3rd 2016. A year later, he was gone. Sometimes it feels like all of [...]

I am a face of PTSD

I am a face of PTSD

I am a face of PTSD. Today, June 27th, is National PTSD Awareness Day. This day is dedicated to creating awareness of Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder, and the struggle of the people it affects. PTSD is a form of anxiety that can develop after a person experiences or witnesses a traumatic event, such as death, serious [...]

Igniting the Flame

Igniting the Flame

This is a heartbreaking post to write. To have to recognize just how hurtful and mean spirited people can be, EVEN when they know your story or circumstances. Sometimes, because of your story or circumstances. Each year on July 3rd, the anniversary of Sloan’s death, we hold a small family and friends memorial for him. [...]

Dad

Dad

The first man I ever loved. The man who fixed my hair when I decided to cut bangs while mom was out of town. Who came to change my tire on the side of the freeway at 2am. The man who went on tampon and pamprin trips anytime I ran out. Who gifts me beef [...]

Love What Matters

Last week Love What Matters contacted me to write a piece on our story. I took bits from several different blog entries so some of it you’ll have read before, but the best way for me to tell our story was to use the words I’d written describing it during my most vulnerable moments, rather [...]

First Birthday

First Birthday

Sometimes I can’t believe P was ever this small, quiet, or still! I usually update with her stats every few months, more for myself to look back upon than for anyone else. At her 1 year check last week she was 31.5” tall, and 22.2lbs. That .2, that means a lot. Because 22.2lbs was exactly [...]

The End of an Era

I write this with tears in my eyes. I have made the difficult but necessary choice to close up Hello Cedar Co this year, for good. I have reached a point with the business where I cannot personally maintain the growth and demand without either hiring out, or manufacturing. Neither of these are routes I’d [...]