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PTSD and Grief

Sometimes I find myself staring at the floor across the room as if waiting to see him come crawling toward me. I wake up in the middle of the night and sit up in bed thinking I hear him chattering … Continue Reading PTSD and Grief

Anxious

Other than our grief therapy appointment, our two and a half days in Leavenworth was the first time I’d set foot in public in a month. I have avoided the grocery store, restaurants, parks, anywhere people would bring their babies. … Continue Reading Anxious

What is New

Moving into our new home has been a bittersweet experience. While unpacking, decorating and settling has been somewhat cathartic, its also been difficult not to think “I’d rather have him than all this.” It’s rough road and each new day … Continue Reading What is New

Forever Young

For our Sloanie “May God bless and keep you always May your wishes all come true May you always do for others And let others do for you May you build a ladder to the stars And climb on every … Continue Reading Forever Young

A Day in the Life

A day in the life of a newly bereaved parent: -Waking up each morning ready to go get your baby out of the crib, and remembering your baby is gone. -Scrolling through Facebook having to “unfollow” friends with babies (or … Continue Reading A Day in the Life

Home

Justin and I have been together a little more than 6 years, married for 2 next week. We’ve experienced more heartache and trauma as a couple in the past three weeks than ever before. But we’re still here, and we’re … Continue Reading Home

Rowan

The Rowan Tree is prominent in Norse mythology as the tree from which the first woman was made, (the first … Continue Reading Rowan

What it is to Burn

Sloan’s cremation is scheduled for tomorrow. Thinking about what that means, what that process is, the fact that his body will no longer be on this earth in the form we held, hugged, and kissed-is like reliving his death all … Continue Reading What it is to Burn

Sloan

The meaning behind Sloan’s name: We chose Sloan for a baby before him, who we lost at 8 weeks gestation. … Continue Reading Sloan