Shelter in Place
I think there’s a collective tiredness right now. Tired of what’s been, tired of what we’re told is coming. Tired … Continue Reading Shelter in Place
Stay Home
I’ve been trying to collect my thoughts about everything currently going on in our world. My heart has been heavy with dread, my mind clouded by anxiety and fear. Worrying is tiresome, and I’ve done more than my fair share … Continue Reading Stay Home
Fed is Best
Breast feeding was a challenge from the get go for us. It always ended up the same…me in pain, Valorie frustrated, and still hungry. I would pump, but I was never able to get more than a measly 1-2 ounces … Continue Reading Fed is Best
Mama, I’ve Been There
I want to be honest and upfront about something so many don’t talk about- postpartum depression and delayed bonding with … Continue Reading Mama, I’ve Been There
Still Here
Yesterday was one week since our PICU admittance with Vallie. I haven’t posted since we were discharged, because if I’m being completely honest, I’ve needed some emotional recovery. Recognizing how close we’d been to losing her, to losing another child, … Continue Reading Still Here
Boundaries
Something I’ve had to accept and heal from lately is the realization that some people will never acknowledge the damage of their conduct in regards to you. So I wanted to write about how important it is in these situations, … Continue Reading Boundaries
I Don’t Need Self Care
I have a confession. I don’t spend a lot of time on “me”. Self care isn’t my strong suit. I don’t have my nails done, I think I wax my brows once a month if I remember to, I might … Continue Reading I Don’t Need Self Care
I am a face of PTSD
I am a face of PTSD. Today, June 27th, is National PTSD Awareness Day. This day is dedicated to creating … Continue Reading I am a face of PTSD
Toxic Positivty
Here’s a truth for you. I am self conscious of my weight. I have been all my life, but more so now than ever before. Now, before you comment and try to placate or assuage, read further. If someone tells … Continue Reading Toxic Positivty
Let’s Talk Mental Health
For much of my life I have battled anxiety. I was devastatingly shy, mortified of being noticed. I can remember vividly having panic attacks as a child. Laying in my bed at night with my heart racing, crying as I … Continue Reading Let’s Talk Mental Health
From Friend to Foe
Recently I’ve detached myself from some toxic relationships in my life. I had begun to realize these were people who did not serve to bring out the best sides of me, and instead induced a subconscious battle with mental health. … Continue Reading From Friend to Foe
Casting A Stone
Since my son’s death, I’ve encountered both support, and judgement. One comment in particular has always stuck out to me: That I’m a terrible person, and everything I do is for publicity. I think it angers me still, because I’ve … Continue Reading Casting A Stone
Regression + Progression
Recently, I fell off the grief wagon. Nearing the end of my pregnancy I thought I was doing fine, I thought I didn’t need my anxiety medication anymore, and I stopped taking it. I stopped going to therapy, I thought … Continue Reading Regression + Progression
Growing
This is what it looks like to have carried life. This body has created and nourished three babies, it has … Continue Reading Growing
Post The Selfie
I don’t post a whole lot of photos showing my face. I’m not really sure I could give you a … Continue Reading Post The Selfie
