10 years. A whole decade. This was the decade Justin and I started dating. The decade we married and began our life together. The decade when life grew inside my body as we brought four beautiful babies into the world, changing and shifting our identities forever. The decade we lost two pregnancies, struggled with secondary [...]
I want to take a moment to thank all of you who read my last post and we’re not only so supportive over the past several days, but understood and honored how triggering and devastating it all was. It’s been a very difficult undertaking to move past this setback, but we are trying our best. [...]
This week tested me more than I’ve been tested since Sloan died. My emotions and anxiety were so triggered that I was physically ill from it. One of the worst parts was not being able to discuss any of it until it was over. I was struggling to cope, and I couldn't say a word. [...]
For more than 8 years, we’ve been at each other’s side. Sometimes reluctantly, sometimes with difficulty, many times joyously. Our connections to one another go back into our childhoods. We had mutual friends even then. We grew up in the same neighborhood, streets away from each other. We had family vacations to the same places [...]
I write this with tears in my eyes. I have made the difficult but necessary choice to close up Hello Cedar Co this year, for good. I have reached a point with the business where I cannot personally maintain the growth and demand without either hiring out, or manufacturing. Neither of these are routes I’d [...]
It is Infertility Awareness week, so I’d like to touch back on the subject of secondary infertility & pregnancy loss. When Rowan was 4 months old, we suffered a loss of a pregnancy at 10 weeks. It was traumatic, and we battled our grief for quite some time afterwards. We were elated when I got [...]
These are what I would deem my best nine of 2018, not what an algorithm found to have the most likes. I survived the emotional turmoil and conflicting joy of a pregnancy after child loss. We welcomed our fiery and tenacious rainbow girl into the world. Rowan turned 5. We faced our first “deathiversary”, a [...]
