I’ve been so very triggered with my grief lately. I know pregnancy can really impact your emotions (trust me, this is my 4th baby and 6th pregnancy. I’m aware of what hormones do). But I’m just a wreck most days. … Continue Reading Tumbling in the Waves
It is Infertility Awareness week, so I’d like to touch back on the subject of secondary infertility & pregnancy loss. … Continue Reading Infertility Awareness Week
Holidays are always a struggle since his death. While they’re cherished time with family, they tend to be such a painful reminder of my child’s absence. Easter hit me hard. There should have been another basket, another set of tiny … Continue Reading Silencing
I spent my morning looking through the stacks of cards and letters sent to us when Sloan died. There are … Continue Reading Letters From Strangers
I slept pretty fitfully last night, and only for a brief few hours. My mind was racing with thoughts of him, and aching for another family, knowing in my bones exactly the agony they are experiencing right now. I want … Continue Reading It Doesn’t Get Better, Only Less Hard
On Tuesday I decided I had the courage to call the medical examiners office and ask for Sloan’s file. Last … Continue Reading Another Wave
I remember what trying to save a life looked like. It’s still so vivid, like when you wake from a dream and you’re so certain it was reality. Only, it’s been over a year and a half and still I … Continue Reading How to Save a Life
For the past two years, Sloan has traveled the world. He’s impacted millions with his story. He has graced magazines, … Continue Reading It’s Called Impact
These are what I would deem my best nine of 2018, not what an algorithm found to have the most … Continue Reading Best Nine
My mom opened this beautiful locket for Christmas. Justin and I thought on this gift for a long while as … Continue Reading A Locket
Winter is hard. For so many people. If you suffer from seasonal depression or anxiety, you have a full understanding … Continue Reading Tis the Season of Grieving
On December 4th 2016, at 3:00am, my water broke. Sloan Valor DeRosier was born 2 hours and 45 minutes later, … Continue Reading Sloan Turns 2
This year and a half has been so difficult for us and such a test of our coping mechanisms. last year it was all so fresh. Sloan’s death had loomed over everything regarding us, for everyone. Everyone knew about it, … Continue Reading Search & Rescue
I cried while I put up our tree this year. Two years ago at this time I was a week … Continue Reading Oh Christmas Tree
On Sunday night, I crumbled. Phoenix was crying for hours, refusing sleep. It’s unusual for her. She’s been the mythical baby who has slept through the night since she was only weeks old. She’s not one to cry like that … Continue Reading Trauma & Triggers
Finding beauty in death and trauma is not an easy undertaking. It requires you to see past the devastation and … Continue Reading Beauty
