
Wishes
I wish I had taken more photos. Documented his milestones, saved all the measurements and savored each new moment. I … Continue Reading Wishes
I wish I had taken more photos. Documented his milestones, saved all the measurements and savored each new moment. I … Continue Reading Wishes
To the Mother Pregnant After Child Loss I too, have carried the weight of pregnancy and motherhood after the loss … Continue Reading To the Mother Pregnant After Child Loss
There are days I don’t dwell on his death. Entire days where I manage for it not to pull me under even once. And then there are days like today, his birthday. When I’ve cried quietly, but with all of … Continue Reading The Rougher Days
Tomorrow is your 3rd birthday. The third turn of a year for you, in which you aren’t here. It’s been … Continue Reading Three
Hello November! I’ve taken some time away from writing and posting lately. Life has been busy as we’ve settled into Rowan being in school, Phoenix turning into a little person instead of a baby, and ALL of us preparing for … Continue Reading November
When you tell me “It was God’s plan”, “God needed him more”, “He’s in a better place”, “Heaven needed him”, or “Everything happens for a reason.” You are minimizing my child’s life and death. Stop saying these things to the … Continue Reading This Was Never About Divinity
It’s International Bereaved Fathers Day today. I think something that is often forgotten in the world of child loss is that- dads grieve too. My husbands grief isn’t something I’ve spent much of any time talking about publicly because I … Continue Reading International Bereaved Fathers Day
Dear Jordan, This morning, your son died. Right now it feels hopeless. As you hold your lifeless baby in your … Continue Reading A Letter To a Past Self
Rowan turns 6 two weeks from today. Lately he’s been remarking a LOT about missing his brother. The fact that my 6 year old child already has a part of his story that includes death, breaks my heart. I’m thankful … Continue Reading Rowan’s Grief
Have you ever had to think about what you would say for your child’s eulogy? Have you ever had to sign your name on a paper detailing what you want done with the body they left behind? Have you had … Continue Reading Have You Ever
The bereaved spend so much time being shushed and made to feel like we cannot share because it’s too sad, too uncomfortable, too inappropriate. We are quieted by people, with solutions, the want to gloss over with positivity, the need … Continue Reading Let us Complain
2 years since we had to learn how to live all over again 2 years of ache 2 years of … Continue Reading 2 years of the Space Between Us
On the day Sloan was cremated, I sat in my parents backyard and created a video containing all of our … Continue Reading Sloan’s Life in Photos
18 weeks with baby girl 🖤 Today is rough. I’m not sure what’s worse. The day before the anniversary of … Continue Reading The Day Before
This book for bereaved mothers (it’s called You are the mother of all mothers) was sent to me just after … Continue Reading The Mother of All Mothers
This is a heartbreaking post to write. To have to recognize just how hurtful and mean spirited people can be, … Continue Reading Igniting the Flame