Category: Grief & Loss

Wishes

I wish I had taken more photos. Documented his milestones, saved all the measurements and savored each new moment. I … Continue Reading Wishes

To the Mother Pregnant After Child Loss

To the Mother Pregnant After Child Loss I too, have carried the weight of pregnancy and motherhood after the loss … Continue Reading To the Mother Pregnant After Child Loss

There are days I don’t dwell on his death. Entire days where I manage for it not to pull me under even once. And then there are days like today, his birthday. When I’ve cried quietly, but with all of … Continue Reading The Rougher Days

Three

Tomorrow is your 3rd birthday. The third turn of a year for you, in which you aren’t here. It’s been … Continue Reading Three

November

Hello November! I’ve taken some time away from writing and posting lately. Life has been busy as we’ve settled into Rowan being in school, Phoenix turning into a little person instead of a baby, and ALL of us preparing for … Continue Reading November

This Was Never About Divinity

When you tell me “It was God’s plan”, “God needed him more”, “He’s in a better place”, “Heaven needed him”, or “Everything happens for a reason.” You are minimizing my child’s life and death. Stop saying these things to the … Continue Reading This Was Never About Divinity

International Bereaved Fathers Day

It’s International Bereaved Fathers Day today. I think something that is often forgotten in the world of child loss is that- dads grieve too. My husbands grief isn’t something I’ve spent much of any time talking about publicly because I … Continue Reading International Bereaved Fathers Day

A Letter To a Past Self

Dear Jordan, This morning, your son died. Right now it feels hopeless. As you hold your lifeless baby in your … Continue Reading A Letter To a Past Self

Rowan’s Grief

Rowan turns 6 two weeks from today. Lately he’s been remarking a LOT about missing his brother. The fact that my 6 year old child already has a part of his story that includes death, breaks my heart. I’m thankful … Continue Reading Rowan’s Grief

Have You Ever

Have you ever had to think about what you would say for your child’s eulogy? Have you ever had to sign your name on a paper detailing what you want done with the body they left behind? Have you had … Continue Reading Have You Ever

Let us Complain

The bereaved spend so much time being shushed and made to feel like we cannot share because it’s too sad, too uncomfortable, too inappropriate. We are quieted by people, with solutions, the want to gloss over with positivity, the need … Continue Reading Let us Complain