Wishes

Wishes

I wish I had taken more photos. Documented his milestones, saved all the measurements and savored each new moment. I wish I had kissed the top of his head more, touched my lips to his hair and breathed in his scent. I wish I’d memorized the feeling of his warm hands in mine, his pulse [...]

Three

Three

Tomorrow is your 3rd birthday. The third turn of a year for you, in which you aren’t here. It’s been 2 years and 5 months since I last held or touched you. 2 years and 5 months since I last heard you cry or made you smile. 2 years and 5 months without the smell [...]

November

Hello November! I’ve taken some time away from writing and posting lately. Life has been busy as we’ve settled into Rowan being in school, Phoenix turning into a little person instead of a baby, and ALL of us preparing for the new baby’s arrival in the coming weeks. This also means Sloan’s 3rd birthday is [...]

International Bereaved Fathers Day

It’s International Bereaved Fathers Day today. I think something that is often forgotten in the world of child loss is that- dads grieve too. My husbands grief isn’t something I’ve spent much of any time talking about publicly because I have tried very hard to respect his emotional autonomy. Justin’s grieving has been a very [...]