Wishes

Wishes

I wish I had taken more photos. Documented his milestones, saved all the measurements and savored each new moment. I wish I had kissed the top of his head more, touched my lips to his hair and breathed in his scent. I wish I’d memorized the feeling of his warm hands in mine, his pulse [...]

Postpartum

Postpartum

We are exhausted over here adjusting to life with three babes, two who are under two. It has been a pretty rough journey. Phoenix has always been a TERRIBLE sleeper, and Valorie only sleeps for 20-30 minutes at a time. Vallie is our fourth baby, the third non-sleeper. We’ve been through this many times and [...]

A Decade Defined

A Decade Defined

10 years. A whole decade. This was the decade Justin and I started dating. The decade we married and began our life together. The decade when life grew inside my body as we brought four beautiful babies into the world, changing and shifting our identities forever. The decade we lost two pregnancies, struggled with secondary [...]

Still Here

Yesterday was one week since our PICU admittance with Vallie. I haven’t posted since we were discharged, because if I’m being completely honest, I’ve needed some emotional recovery. Recognizing how close we’d been to losing her, to losing another child, is deafening. When she was her sickest, they had rushed us through the ER, and [...]