Trauma & Triggers

On Sunday night, I crumbled. Phoenix was crying for hours, refusing sleep. It’s unusual for her. She’s been the mythical baby who has slept through the night since she was only weeks old. She’s not one to cry like that either. Something in me was triggered and I had a panic attack. I suddenly wasn’t [...]

A List of Longing

A List of Longing

Tonight my mama heart is aching for him. For the things I cannot have. The things stolen from me, from us. His soft, squishy skin. His downy hair, thinned and riddled with relenting cradle cap. His flimsy delicate fingernails I never had to cut because they’d simply flake off at the ends on their own. [...]