Mama, I’ve Been There

Mama, I’ve Been There

I want to be honest and upfront about something so many don’t talk about- postpartum depression and delayed bonding with a new baby. There’s such a stigma around this topic, especially with mamas like myself who have previously lost a child. “Cherish every moment” “Don’t take it for granted” “It goes by so quickly” “The [...]

Home

Home

Last night as I was tucking Rowan in to bed he started crying. I asked him what was wrong and he told me “I miss our old house, I liked it better.” I was kind of taken aback, because we’ve lived in this house for nearly 3 years now. It’s bigger, nicer, in a beautiful [...]

Seizure

Seizure

Last night at around 10:30pm I heard the sound of Phoenix gagging, then crying out on the monitor to her room. I rushed in expecting to see her standing up at the edge of her crib throwing a tantrum about bedtime. I was fully prepared to scold her and lay her back down. Instead I [...]

I Did the Dishes

People think they know how they’d react, what they’d do. You don’t. Grief is experienced differently by everyone. It is managed differently by everyone. I did the dishes when my son died. After we’d held his lifeless body for hours, crying the tears of devastation onto his still face, they gently took him from my [...]