1 year ago yesterday I posted our announcement of Phoenix. It feels like just yesterday I was terrified of the triggers that would come with a pregnancy after the loss of a child. I had so much anxiousness and worry, even guilt.
But then, she was here and she was magic. She has been healing, she has been light, she has been relief. She is a reminder of her brother before her, she looks as she could be his twin, but she reminds us in all the ways we’d want to be reminded. Of his smile, of his beautiful soul piercing eyes, of his dark downy hair and his pillowy cheeks.
There is so much of him there, and yet, so much of her that is her own. This delicately woven combination of the two, this feisty, beautiful, vivacious little surprise, is the greatest gift we’ve received since losing him.