I want to be honest and upfront about something so many don’t talk about- postpartum depression and delayed bonding with a new baby. There’s such a stigma around this topic, especially with mamas like myself who have previously lost a child. “Cherish every moment” “Don’t take it for granted” “It goes by so quickly” “The [...]
Last night as I was tucking Rowan in to bed he started crying. I asked him what was wrong and he told me “I miss our old house, I liked it better.” I was kind of taken aback, because we’ve lived in this house for nearly 3 years now. It’s bigger, nicer, in a beautiful [...]
Last night at around 10:30pm I heard the sound of Phoenix gagging, then crying out on the monitor to her room. I rushed in expecting to see her standing up at the edge of her crib throwing a tantrum about bedtime. I was fully prepared to scold her and lay her back down. Instead I [...]
For two weeks now I have been trying to move past the response I got when I posted that short video of Sloan from less than two days before he passed. Being told by so many that it was “too difficult” for them to watch, that it made them “too sad” was so damaging for [...]
People think they know how they’d react, what they’d do. You don’t. Grief is experienced differently by everyone. It is managed differently by everyone. I did the dishes when my son died. After we’d held his lifeless body for hours, crying the tears of devastation onto his still face, they gently took him from my [...]
Did you know I have to have a filter set up on my Instagram to keep certain hurtful words and comments from my viewing? That a friend has my login info so that she may sort through my DMs to hopefully keep me from seeing the more negative ones? And still sometimes, I stumble upon [...]
My parents made the decision 3 decades ago to create life together and they’ve nurtured, loved, and supported those lives unconditionally every day since. Regardless of their own well being, their own struggles, their own traumas, their own wants, desires, and dreams, they have ushered my brother and I through the world and whatever it [...]
