Let us Complain

The bereaved spend so much time being shushed and made to feel like we cannot share because it’s too sad, too uncomfortable, too inappropriate. We are quieted by people, with solutions, the want to gloss over with positivity, the need to correct, to answer. Even with “good intentions”, certain things just hurt. When we are [...]

Siblings

Siblings

When I was pregnant with Sloan, as whole heartedly as we wanted a second child, as hard as we had tried, with our miscarriages, the secondary infertility, the testing, the wait, and the meds needed, I was still terrified of what it would be like to bring him home. I had so much fear of [...]

Eating Happy

I’m not the Instagram mom who is cutting fun shapes out of vegetables, banning all junk, and making sure they get every essential vitamin out of each food pyramid item. My kids eat what they like, when they’d like, with the occasional new introduction. If they don’t like something I don’t force them to sit [...]

The Day Before

The Day Before

18 weeks with baby girl 🖤 Today is rough. I’m not sure what’s worse. The day before the anniversary of his death- or the day of. See, the day before is filled with anticipation. Anticipating tomorrows triggers, tears, grief attacks, longing, ache. It’s filled with remembering that on the evening of this day 2 years [...]