What Not to Say

About a week ago, my husband told me someone had pulled him aside and made a comment that had really upset him, regarding my pregnancy. I was equally as upset by it when he told me. You see, this person had decided that not only was his judgement of us worth having, it was worth [...]

The Last One

I have held onto this photo for nearly 9 months now, unable to let it out of the privacy of my phone because it was the last photo I’d ever taken of him, at 3:15pm on July 2nd. The last day of his life. I had been testing out new patterns for apparel and he [...]

Third Trimester

It is crazy to think that in only 13 (or less) weeks, we will welcome newborn Phoenix. Only 11 months after Sloan left this earth, his sister will arrive. In so many ways I’m incredibly ready to smell that scent, to touch that brand new, flaky baby skin, to feel another of my newborn babies [...]

The Ocean

This morning I felt the burning, aching, sting of tears fill my eyes for the first time in weeks. I've been on a plain of functioning, distracted grief that kept me too busy to focus on any deeply rooted thoughts of longing. But as with griefs true nature, the tide comes back in eventually. This [...]

Week 27

Week 27

It is absolutely mind boggling to me how quickly and smoothly this pregnancy has traveled the course of time. We are already in the third trimester, with only 14 weeks (or less if she's like her brothers) to go! Phoenix is so calm and gentle, and she absolutely adores hearing her brother giggle... instant kicks [...]