I write this with tears in my eyes. I have made the difficult but necessary choice to close up Hello Cedar Co this year, for good. I have reached a point with the business where I cannot personally maintain the growth and demand without either hiring out, or manufacturing. Neither of these are routes I’d [...]

It’s late, the room is dark and the hum of the cool air from the vent mixes with the sound of sleeping breaths. She was upset by something tonight, refusing to sleep alone, she needed to be in her mamas arms. Her head rests on the softness of my once flat stomach, now decorated with [...]

I’ve been so very triggered with my grief lately. I know pregnancy can really impact your emotions (trust me, this is my 4th baby and 6th pregnancy. I’m aware of what hormones do). But I’m just a wreck most days. I find myself in tears several times a day, longing to hold him, smell him, [...]

It is Infertility Awareness week, so I’d like to touch back on the subject of secondary infertility & pregnancy loss. When Rowan was 4 months old, we suffered a loss of a pregnancy at 10 weeks. It was traumatic, and we battled our grief for quite some time afterwards. We were elated when I got [...]

Holidays are always a struggle since his death. While they’re cherished time with family, they tend to be such a painful reminder of my child’s absence. Easter hit me hard. There should have been another basket, another set of tiny little dimpled hands reaching for hidden eggs, another chocolate bunny smeared face sitting at the [...]