How to Save a Life

I remember what trying to save a life looked like. It’s still so vivid, like when you wake from a dream and you’re so certain it was reality. Only, it’s been over a year and a half and still I wake so certain my reality is a dream. I remember the pallor of his face [...]

Sprite

Sprite

Our Sprite @slumberkins arrived today and Rowan is in love. Each Slumberkins creature is created with a different theme to teach little ones social-emotional life skills. Slumberkins all have an accompanying board book that "uses an interactive story time approach infused with therapeutic techniques and skill-building exercises from each of their backgrounds." The snuggly creatures bring [...]

A Call to Action

A Call to Action

The National Institute of Child Health and Development (NICHD) is the government agency responsible for research on the problem of sudden unexplained deaths in infants and children. Historically, the NICDH supported the development of the Triple Risk hypothesis, brainstem serotonin research, epilepsy-related findings in SIDS and SUDC, research on the role of cardiac channelopathies and [...]

At Night

At Night

You’re curled up in the crook of my arms right now, your head nestled into my chest right where my own heart beats. Your breath is that loud and even breathing, of a deep sleep. Your tiny, clammy fingers are gripping the piece of my shirt that you’ve got bunched inside them. My cheek rests [...]

It’s Called Impact

It’s Called Impact

For the past two years, Sloan has traveled the world. He’s impacted millions with his story. He has graced magazines, made newspaper headlines, appeared on television news, been the topic of online articles, filled countless conversations. He’s saved hundreds of thousands of other little lives. He has taught, he has reminded, he has overseen, he [...]

The Crib

The Crib

P has been napping in her crib for two weeks. This is huge. Since she was born, I’ve had her in it for photos here and there, I’ve let her play in it to create some familiarity. But until two weeks ago I’d never let her sleep in it. It took me until I was [...]

Best Nine

These are what I would deem my best nine of 2018, not what an algorithm found to have the most likes. I survived the emotional turmoil and conflicting joy of a pregnancy after child loss. We welcomed our fiery and tenacious rainbow girl into the world. Rowan turned 5. We faced our first “deathiversary”, a [...]