I have held onto this photo for nearly 9 months now, unable to let it out of the privacy of my phone because it was the last photo I’d ever taken of him, at 3:15pm on July 2nd. The last day of his life. I had been testing out new patterns for apparel and he [...]
Third Trimester
It is crazy to think that in only 13 (or less) weeks, we will welcome newborn Phoenix. Only 11 months after Sloan left this earth, his sister will arrive. In so many ways I’m incredibly ready to smell that scent, to touch that brand new, flaky baby skin, to feel another of my newborn babies [...]
The Ocean
This morning I felt the burning, aching, sting of tears fill my eyes for the first time in weeks. I've been on a plain of functioning, distracted grief that kept me too busy to focus on any deeply rooted thoughts of longing. But as with griefs true nature, the tide comes back in eventually. This [...]
Words Are Our Magic
Recently I had someone use my exact words as her own. While I appreciate that something I wrote had resonated with her, I will admit that I was offended. Here's why. It is so important to credit the author of a sentiment. We do not offer our words up to you without first having traveled [...]
Week 27
It is absolutely mind boggling to me how quickly and smoothly this pregnancy has traveled the course of time. We are already in the third trimester, with only 14 weeks (or less if she's like her brothers) to go! Phoenix is so calm and gentle, and she absolutely adores hearing her brother giggle... instant kicks [...]
Post The Selfie
I don’t post a whole lot of photos showing my face. I’m not really sure I could give you a reason why, other than that I just don’t get in front of the camera often myself, sans a few bump photos or snap chat filters. But recently my friend Amethyst posted a sentence about selfies [...]
Siblings
Rowan hugs and kisses my belly every morning and says I love you to Phoenix. This morning, I said “you are missing having a baby around aren’t you?” He looked up at me and responded “Yeah mama, a lot” I told him once his sister was here he could love and hug her just like [...]
