I Did the Dishes

People think they know how they’d react, what they’d do. You don’t. Grief is experienced differently by everyone. It is managed differently by everyone. I did the dishes when my son died. After we’d held his lifeless body for hours, crying the tears of devastation onto his still face, they gently took him from my [...]

Wishes

Wishes

I wish I had taken more photos. Documented his milestones, saved all the measurements and savored each new moment. I wish I had kissed the top of his head more, touched my lips to his hair and breathed in his scent. I wish I’d memorized the feeling of his warm hands in mine, his pulse [...]

Postpartum

Postpartum

We are exhausted over here adjusting to life with three babes, two who are under two. It has been a pretty rough journey. Phoenix has always been a TERRIBLE sleeper, and Valorie only sleeps for 20-30 minutes at a time. Vallie is our fourth baby, the third non-sleeper. We’ve been through this many times and [...]